Allusions

I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind…
I think I need a sunrise, I’m tired of the sunset

- Augustana “Boston”

These lyrics describe how I felt at the end of last semester. It was the craziest of my life: my courses stretched me to the limit, but I also found amazing, supportive friends who helped me balance work and school (hi K and R!). My study abroad experience was supposed to take place in the spring, but scheduling factors related to a major I’m no longer pursuing and family events (sister’s graduation, etc.) forced me to move it to the fall. Thank goodness! I’m discovering things about myself every day. It may be cliché, but sometimes you really do have to get lost in order to find yourself. I’m about to embark on a pretty dramatic change that I know will be good for me. But I hesitate just a bit, wondering if this is really what I want to do. I guess it’s hard for me to accept that part of growing up is closing doors on perfectly good ideas. I’m currently reading “To the Lighthouse” by Virginia Woolf (thanks for the tip Alicia!) and one of the main characters, Mrs. Ramsay, envisions Life as a force to be contested. Either you get the better of life, or it gets the better of you. I hope I made the right bet…

“To dare is to lose one’s footing momentarily. Not to dare is to lose oneself.”

- Soren Kierkegaard